You know that feeling of deja vu? Well, what is it when you know you did a thing before, decided to stop doing it, then re-decide to do it again? That’s how I’m feeling! 🙂
Once upon a time, when I was married, my then-husband and I, would work together on our family business. I baked vegan confections (cakes, pies, cookies, cobblers, cupcakes, etc.). He designed all of the marketing materials. We talked about and implemented business development, strategy and planning. We were a good team.
Fast forward to today. I miss those days of being a part of a great team that worked passionately towards a goal.
Sure I write books, and I blog. However, it’s not the same as being a part of a larger whole. I realize I enjoy working with others very much. This is why I loved working on the #IndieRoar Challenge with the great supportive group #IndieBooksBeSeen headed by Mark Shaw.
This is also why I was right there with Tome Tender in promoting other authors, their books and giveaways. The pace was fast, furious and FUN!
While I still enjoyed what I did with these groups, I still didn’t get that feeling. You know what I mean. That deep gut-level sense of rightness.
A shrug of my shoulders is all I gave to this niggling-nagging feeling of incompleteness.
Okay. This year. I get sick, and then I got better. However, I have to get on a strict healthy diet which includes getting filters on all of the water outlets in my home and re-evaluating everything I do. Then, the Solar Eclipse happens. It’s almost as if my eyes opened as the sun re-emerged. Everything in my life felt different. Yet, nothing really changed…except I had the beginnings of that feeling of rightness — for no reason at all.
Since the 21st, many things began to happen that took no effort on my part. I just sat/stood (with my mouth hanging ajar) and watched almost as if I were a bystander. Things got better. I felt better. My viewpoint clearly made some sort of shift. And somehow, by the 26th, I was a part of a group of people who call themselves Diamonds. (Don’t you just love that?!?)
I am back in the fold of working passionately with a group of people who strive to walk more lightly on the planet while helping people make money along the way. My writing has shifted focus and my new works are geared around health & wellness topics. [I still love my fiction and my horror novel though! But, that’s another story.]
The feeling of being stoked is strong! My family asked me why I was in such a giddy mood. I just smiled because it feels good to feel happy.